My daughter Sam is in the Studio Arts program in college and this is one of her recent creations.Β Isn’t it AMAZING!?!
Little did she know that when she gave it to me it was incredibly significant to what I was going through.
I’d been having some health issues and the doctors had decided that I needed a stress-echocardiogram to look for heart damage and a brain/inner ear MRI to look for a tumor.Β Needless to say we didn’t want to tell the kids until we had definite answers…positive or negative.
I was scared to death.
I cried as I showed my husband the print and he nodded, knowing just what I was thinking.
He accompanied me to the tests and the doctor visits after, thank God, because I was a mess.Β I’d always been the caregiver – dealing with doctors on behalf of parents, kids, other loved ones, and friends.Β But this…this was about me, and I knew I couldn’t do it alone.
Once we received the news that everything was good, we felt like a huge weight was lifted.Β We didn’t have all the answers we needed, but we sure had some fantastic negative results!
We didΒ receive one answer (to the loud hum, aka tinnitus, andΒ hearing and off-balance issuesΒ I was having):Β Meniere’s Syndrome in my left ear.Β It’s aΒ health issueΒ diagnosed by elimination…meaning there’s no one test that can diagnose it.Β It brings with it random episodes of Vertigo, a feeling of being off-balance, and sometimes permanent hearing loss.Β My hearingΒ loss is permanent, but onlyΒ moderate/severe to mild (I can’t hear low sounds but I can hear high-pitched sounds).Β Β It can be progressive but doesn’t cause full hearing loss, and it doesn’t usually affect the other ear.Β A hearing aid should help, which I hope to get this week.Β Β Β So ifΒ you see me walking around a store and I’m wobbly, remember I’m not drunk, it’s just the Meniere’s!
I’ve learned one thing from all this:Β if you have tinnitus in just one ear – get to an ENT or Audiologist right away! I’d been having the loud hum off and on for probably a year, but just figured ‘everyone gets tinnitus, don’t they?’.Β Wrong answer.
My other health issues will have to wait until April when we goΒ to the Mayo Clinic for some specialized testing.Β In the meantime I’m just hanging out…writing a little, getting myself a new look (see the new profile photo), and reading a lot of books…and once in a while watching those crazy babies who sit and snuggle with me!
Life is good…I don’t haveΒ heart disease or a brain tumor!
Patty O
ps…Back to Sam’s art…now we can relax and have her print as a reminder of just how blessed we are.Β It will soon be framed and in a place of honor on our wall.
pps…Notice I didn’t say an empty head.Β I have too many friends that would have far too much fun with that. π
A Thankfully Imperfect Woman 